float on

today i almost broke down during training.

and no, not because i was missing almost every ball that came my way, or that my throws were wayward or that i batted like crap (although i would've, maybe, if i had less control). it was the mention of a friend who left too early, and hearing the (supposed) reason for departure (NONSENSE). and i was thinking- please don't, you don't know anything so DON'T say anything. the way the conversation was going just killed my mood, brought back the whole flood of memories, along with a sinking feeling that was.. horrible.

and the reminder that although things have seemingly returned to normal, i quote, a part of (us) died with you. den and i were in a shop the other day, and memories of us shopping for your birthday present left us feeling hollow, empty.

we miss you, and we hope you're doing well

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veraktas camp over the weekend and boy, was it fun : ) i'm now ready and raring to go. bring it on!