zero to..

hero?

in a sea of over-achieving, highflying, intelligent 18 year olds, it's very tiring to want to keep up all the time. i used to be comfortable doing what i liked (photography, writing) in st nicks, but somehow recently, i've started feeling a bit itchy in this skin of mine. it's becoming uncomfortable being the under-achieving, underutilised (oh yes very) unmotivated individual that i am (oh yes believe me). two years ago (god has it been that long?) it used to be so easy, we didn't use to have so many rats running this silly race.

don't get me wrong, college's fun; softball's exciting, karate's good, i do photog at leisure (and well, even though that's not very um often), it's just, well ordinary. i'm ordinary. well, which begs the question, what's wrong with Ordinary? (i'm not, however, advocating mediocrity). i think, that, we've been conditioned to prioritise being Bests and Elites for too long. what's wrong with not being numero uno? i haven't felt such conflict for a while (maybe not ever). i guess these are things to ponder over, hm hm ;)


if you want to know, testimonial writing (and drawing many, many blanks) is what's prompted this (not so eloquent) tirade. well, i may not be a special superTeen, but i know one thing- i have really Extraordinary friends who're always there (e.g. the one who helped me smoke a paragraph of utter bullcrap on softball even though there's a chemistry test tomorrow and the one who left supplies/surprise for me in my hideyhole.. AND the one down under, and the one having CTs now and.. etcetcetc) and i think that these are the people who make my ordinary, mundane, underachieving life so much better :)