brand new

met egg today and it was relieving, to say the least. i was so tired, and still am. fuck eom

**angst ahead**

sometimes school can be so emotionally stifling, with everyone being so competitive. i mean, not just academically but come on, in all other fields too else too. even PE, damn it. these people need a serious chill pill. and like fuck, everyone is smart and so stop fucking comparing because it just Pisses Me Off. so what if you're better than tom, or dick? some other bugger out there is still better than you, and so on and so forth. the people who do well and keep quiet are the ones i truly admire, not some half-past six fuck whose ego is so damn big. i hate it when people get bigheaded and act like dicks. and at times i wonder if i really made the right choice- which of course, is refuted immediately by this other voice in my head. yes i am happy, in case you're wondering (those far-flung friends of mine a.k.a dee).. but i guess we all have these Moments of Frustration.

i'm so scared, what if i don't have enough time. this time the fear is real, more so than the fear in the 4 months it took to wake me up to study for prelims last year. i have what, 5 weeks? oh @#$%^&*()(*&^%$

sometimes i really Hate School. this is one of those times