going, going, Gone

i realise i've become very quick to anger nowadays. i feel frustrated very easily and the slightest aggravation will make me want to jump at your throat. not something i'm particularly proud of but, well, you know there's this thing called reciprocity. if you're nice then i'll be nice. dad wasn't very nice this evening.. bring on the claws. Roar.

i think i'm deriving bad fengshui from being so disorganised. when i'm feeling upset i look at the clutter on my table.. and i feel even angrier/angstier. so much for inner peace, huh. and thank you, there's so many things to do (i.e. all the Unfun, Dreary things like PW gah) when all i really want is to take photos, play gunbound, or just curl up and sleep.

i feel angry. i made mother upset. i am angry at self.

Angry.

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and then now there's still bull to deal with. i'm so tired of being taken for granted. fuck, you wouldn't understand if you're one of the guilty ones anyway because, there you are, doing that thing you do

SO SICK SO SICK OF BEING TIRED

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BULLSHIT.