your name here

sometimes you just want to end all the petty fights and take a step back and look at the big picture. all these trivialities cost energy and time- and sometimes, it's just Not Worthwhile. i'm tired of all this quibbling and of our half-hearted conversations; i wish you'd see things from this angle too. we don't even have much time left before the year ends, i don't know why you bother being angry. time can be better spent being happy instead of stewing, there's only so much of 2006 we have left.

god i'm so tired of everything, and i Don't want to go to thailand again; i just want to spend the remaining holidays with my family. they're the only constants in this mess. lovely. and oh my eye feels like it's twice it's normal size, damn those lenses. everything's going wrong, and i wish you were on my side instead of, well, wherever you are


believe me,
it’s not what you think
wish what you want,
it’s all the same to me
well not really, but anyway
it’s just
it’s nothing so simple,
nothing so silly,
nothing so mundane