say a prayer

i'm probably neither the first, nor the last person to say this- but relationships has got to be the thing that leave you the most shagged after a long day. and no, don't think along skewed lines. think platonic, think friends. think trouble, think tiring, think disappointment.. think.

think one way messages, think walled communication.

i think when something falls apart, the onus cannot fall on one person solely. as it goes, it takes two hands to clap. maintaining relationships just becomes a chore sometimes, when the other party isn't responsive and so on. tiring business, this is.

as you age, i think social circles shrink. you know which friends you can count on, and so why do you need so many more? more friends= more trouble. or maybe it should be more acquaintances= more trouble. i hate making small talk. i realise i hate being around people i'm not familiar with, i recognise how averse to change i've become.

and as you read this, don't think of my words as pointed because no, there are no hidden barbs. just another tuesday night's musing for you. and if you're a friend, then hey, i miss you and i wish you weren't so busy- but then again, we all are, huh