hands up baby, hands up

i remember a friend once said, that you'll never really forget until you find someone else. i guess that's true, but sometimes old wounds just don't heal- and the new ones just don't cut it.

i wouldn't know, i guess, because that's still uncharted territory.

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hell week is almost over. exam periods are always lonely, because everyone is holed up someplace or another, filling their heads with formulae and whatnot. lonely, because exams are such a.. lone affair. i've used the same word thrice; i'm clearly in need of fresh new vocabulary. i must remember to go look for those roald dahl books i said i would sometime ago. backtrack to before i guess, but it'd be nice to read his work for adults. more macabre, i like.

i've not been in a very good mood. can you tell?

moshi moshi

we drive out past the runway and watch the planes go flying by




play crack the sky



borrowed heaven



this is alright, this is alright









hell valley



the charming otaru



take a picture







we ate mountains



parliament house



lazy afternoon in the park



love



to stand on your steps with my heart in my hands



this tree carries the hearts' desires of a few hundred people. i would have added mine, if not for the faith you've cost me. fat lot of good a tree would do



i remember you



i am youth; i am joy - peter pan
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Hokkaido, Japan 2006

but it's better if you do

the opposite of love isn't hate- it's indifference - Bree

i never fully realised the absolute meaning of your actions, until now, that is

second to last

sometimes letting go is hard, especially when your ego gets in the way

when you lie awake at night alone and wonder, if a replacement has already been found and installed

is it all that great without me,
is it that easy to forget me?