reason to believe

all the windows swear to miss you

hello g, just because. study hard (like the muggertwoot i know you are), and we'll have lots of time after that to play catch up :)

love will make you beautiful

..really?
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Friend

• noun 1 a person with whom one has a bond of mutual affection, typically one exclusive of sexual or family relations. 2 a familiar or helpful thing. 3 a person who supports a particular cause or organization. 4 (Friend) a Quaker.

— PHRASES a friend in need is a friend indeed proverb a person who helps at a difficult time is a person to be relied upon.

lately, i haven't been too sure.

tiramisu

there's nothing worse than random food cravings that cannot be satisfied immediately- i.e. the more exotic kind that you can't really find in the fridge

oh the temptation.. (and stupidity)!, i googled

the wonders of technology; and oh the frickin' "double edged sword" we harp so much about.

how about hunger pangs being magnified hundred fold after looking at tantalising pictures and recipes, oh recipes...............

i swear to God, after promos i will whip up a mixing bowl filled with tiramisu for myself. so save me

hold your head high, heavy heart

hello friends,

too much has happened, too abruptly and just too fast. we're all upset and reeling from the shock, trying to pick up the pieces to the best of our abilities. but in our haste, maybe we'll forget some things. things that are seemingly unimportant and insignificant to us mightn't be to others, so please remember to always exercise sensitivity and caution in all that you say or do.

today has shown all too clearly that what we have or are, is a blessing. thank you for the support and concern you've shown, for each other. thank you for all the 'you-can-call-me-anytime" offers; thank you for the smiles amidst the tears; for the comforting embraces, just for the love. we've proven ourselves that we can handle this, that we are capable of transcending all this and becoming better, stronger people.

there is a need, for closure and for answers of course. please also rememmber that, as mr ng*n so aptly put it, that we might never find answers to some of the burning questions we so badly want answers to.

also, remember that no one is to blame. as tempting as it might to speculate (i'm not saying that you do), try your darndest not to. remember that we might not have access to all information; remember that we should not pass judgement. please be generous, and give others the benefit of the doubt as much as possible. perhaps what happened was a result of accumulation of many factors. maybe. we don't know.

stay strong friends. today was heartening, touching and so much more that i can't put adjectives to.

we have each other, and that's all that we need.

should woulda, coulda

for the loneliness and the pain felt; for a mother's grief; for our ability to move along-

Amen.

clocks

my North, my South, my East and West,
my working week and my Sunday rest,
my noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
i thought that love would last for ever: i was wrong

w.h. auden


my favourite poem from lit class. a memory evoked by last night's inventio. a memory evoked by words.

p.s. you were great, lea :)

cold concrete

lately all you've been doing is a good job of breaking my heart

< /3

it's amazing how things like these can ruin days. every waking moment was wracked with guilt and tinged with bitterness, so yes, here's a hearty "thank you"

closer

Closer- to promos, to thailand, to a long deserved break, to the end of the year

the last two days have been st nicks and books, st nicks and books. it's tuesday already, and it looks like i'll be kissing this september goodbye soon enough- and judging by the way things have been going lately, that's not the only thing i'll be saying bon voyage to.

perhaps a bon voyage to you in due course too, seeing as how you'd rather sail away than this way. the winds have given up because they, like me, just tire and become weary; you're the captain now, and you steer. so well then, aye aye captain, if you're not careful then maybe we'll see your flag at half mast. sometimes it'll be too late for apologies, things don't always work that way, you know. but from the look of things, you're still going strong- without me- and well, i don't know if you consciously do this but it feels like you. Don't. Care. there, so you can't say i never told you. no time? well why it looks like there's PLENTY of time

no hero.

what an angsty post, but hey, since we're at it- i hate having a hanging, uncertain schedule, so get Back to Me for crying out loud. it's basic courtesy- wednesday is not two weeks away, by the way, it's TOMORROW


P.P.S on a brighter note, (ironically) things on that side are looking up. up up up, from what was thought to be beyond resuscitation. yes!! there is a God! :)

walk away if you want to

whatever you do
i'll be two steps behind you
wherever you go
i'll be there to remind you
that it only takes a minute to turn around

i'll be two steps behind