hands up baby, hands up

was nice playing catch up last night with anne and the rest.


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shouldn't a 'thank you' be obligatory? i would've thought better of you, but now, apparently not.

expectations, expectations.

And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial
I can't take my eyes off you

*

p.s. flying to thailand tomorrow! take care all, especially the one with swollen lymphnodes! ;) and mao, we'll fly soon!

girl from mars

i won't ever ask if you don't ever tell
i know you well enough to know you've never _________ me

in loving memory

home at three am last night, tired and angry. the stupidity of some people never ceases to amaze. to top it all off, there's also inefficacy and arrogance. how insufferable. all in all, i'd say a disgusting concoction. charlotte if you're reading this, i want to work with you!

it's off to thailand on wednesday morning. tents all around, wish me luck : ) egg thinks i might get eaten by a giant mozzie, hahah, but what are the odds, yah. if any Team V members are here, i hope you're as excited as i am. (which is very many many very muchly so [mak mak*] !!!)

but before chiangmai, there's skating with The Mao tomorrow, as well as catching up with juniors and anne on monday!

oh but there's packing to do. what a sorry note to end on.

I know I say that I'm just fine,
But I hope you wonder from time to time


* mak= very (in thai)

you probably couldn't see

i wonder if you know you're changing, from the realistic, semi-responsible, grounded person you were- to someone so flighty and.. shirkish (i know that's not a Real word, but it's quite apt). it's quite sad really, and i'm more concerned for your sake than for anything else. but hey, it's your life, so who am i to say anything eh? what's sad is also that you're pushing away from the old, and away from me, and i begin to feel like i don't matter anymore.

no matter.

today was quite a screwed up. i wonder if sometimes people TRULY think of the repercussions their actions may have on others? i mean, how dense can you get? some things are honestly best left unsaid.. even if release is cathartic for you, it mayn't be for others, so.. go figure.

Meet Laetitia

went out early this morning to shoot, yay. and to meet egg for breakfast hahah. this morning's romp was relatively okay.. i still have plenty of things to iron out (exposure issues, they're such a pain)

anyway these are the more decent shots, for your viewing pleasure. sorry i couldn't get more exciting subjects HAHAH


they were so friendly (the grandparents). i wish i could've caught gran's expression and bettered the framing


exposure is a bit screwed up, but the effect isn't all that bad hm


the sky was a perfect shade of blue :]


my favourite colours

z'okay, that's all folks. feedback if you can! can't wait to take this baby out more. kiteflying tomorrow leanne teo!

F is for Friend..

.. and ingrate is spelt with a capital I. how 'bout coupling that with Insensitive, Insecure, Ignorant and... *insert your very own adjective, kids!*

now now, play nicely

on a happier note, (no i am not schizophrenic, i just happen to be able to compartmentalise (what cell like behaviour) my thoughts)

[shinbin] God works wonders! says: (11:46:10 PM)
why do i feel elitist

[shinbin] God works wonders! says: (11:46:24 PM)
but there are limitations!

[shinbin] God works wonders! says: (11:46:24 PM)
hahhaa

you had me from Hello says: (11:46:27 PM)
oh shut up!

[shinbin] God works wonders! says: (11:46:29 PM)
like my house water bill!

[shinbin] God works wonders! says: (11:46:31 PM)
hahahhahaaa

[shinbin] God works wonders! says: (11:46:40 PM)
diseconomies of scale set in early

you had me from Hello says: (11:47:04 PM)
HAHAAHAHAHAH oh shin bin

you had me from Hello says: (11:47:10 PM)
we can go to sicc and bathe

you had me from Hello says: (11:47:12 PM)
save water

[shinbin] God works wonders! says: (11:47:20 PM)
and waste petrol

you had me from Hello says: (11:47:22 PM)
that's what we did when there was no power in our house

[shinbin] God works wonders! says: (11:47:27 PM)
HAHAHHAAH
you had me from Hello says: (11:47:32 PM)
long long time ago

[shinbin] God works wonders! says: (11:47:32 PM)
oh but yes the bathing there is goood

you had me from Hello says: (11:48:13 PM)
only 4 cubicles!

you had me from Hello says: (11:48:21 PM)
so lame hahah they should make more

[shinbin] God works wonders! says: (11:48:21 PM)
AH

[shinbin] God works wonders! says: (11:48:25 PM)
limitations to the plan

you had me from Hello says: (11:48:30 PM)
OH WE CAN CELEBRATE OUR BIRTHDAY

you had me from Hello says: (11:48:35 PM)
new ideas!

you had me from Hello says: (11:48:36 PM)
hahaha

[shinbin] God works wonders! says: (11:48:36 PM)
OMG yeahhhh

[shinbin] God works wonders! says: (11:48:39 PM)
ooh

[shinbin] God works wonders! says: (11:48:42 PM)
sustatining the momentum!

you had me from Hello says: (11:48:42 PM)
hahahhahahahahaa

you had me from Hello says: (11:48:44 PM)
retard!

see pw has screwed us up so bad, we're scarred for life

set yourself on fire

okay i would really love to update, however nothing is running through the head now save for mundane information that you probably wouldn't give two hoots about, as well as a random jumble of thoughts regarding november.

- the holidays have started (..WHAT HOLIDAYS?)
- egg's birthday is tomorrow! happy birthday FF! : )
- we're flying off soon yay
- i want to play softball Now
- i'm supposed to be doing work but i'm Obviously not anywhere near work

oh and yes, how could i forget. your bells toll this november; i wish you nothing but the best (but of course)

going, going, Gone

i realise i've become very quick to anger nowadays. i feel frustrated very easily and the slightest aggravation will make me want to jump at your throat. not something i'm particularly proud of but, well, you know there's this thing called reciprocity. if you're nice then i'll be nice. dad wasn't very nice this evening.. bring on the claws. Roar.

i think i'm deriving bad fengshui from being so disorganised. when i'm feeling upset i look at the clutter on my table.. and i feel even angrier/angstier. so much for inner peace, huh. and thank you, there's so many things to do (i.e. all the Unfun, Dreary things like PW gah) when all i really want is to take photos, play gunbound, or just curl up and sleep.

i feel angry. i made mother upset. i am angry at self.

Angry.

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and then now there's still bull to deal with. i'm so tired of being taken for granted. fuck, you wouldn't understand if you're one of the guilty ones anyway because, there you are, doing that thing you do

SO SICK SO SICK OF BEING TIRED

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BULLSHIT.