for the last time

right now i'd like nothing more than to throw the most scathing comment i can think of your way, but i just cannot come up with something quite vicious enough. so well, i'd like to think you got lucky, if that's consolation for not being able to come up with a few acerbic words/phrases/sentences

rargh

the same
it's the same, why's it always the same
annie waits
for the last time

Annie waits

and oh, our first photo since well, er, last year

went skating with the Mao today. finally! the skates have been sitting idle in a corner for Far too long.

was good fun, think we went to the end of east coast (almost) and back. was nice sitting under a tree on some bench, watching sailors scuttle around and enjoying the breeze. and of course, the company. sometimes silent conversations are the best remedy for this crazy, technicoloured life we lead, when you never really have any genuine silence. we lost ourselves for almost half an hour, and then decided to head back to the land of the living hahah

then we wandered around parkway, popping into random stores and buying random things (although Mao's haul was anything but random. thank me, quick)

i am Supreme

puma ___, yami yogurt, supreme judgement and taste

"..i smell mangoes"

kupkhunka ;)

smark the GLOBIN

closing the space in my heart says: (9:41:54 PM)
hahaha i dont want nike shirt for birthday hor

Enough says: (9:41:57 PM)
:\
i was thinking of dumbbells

Enough says: (9:42:03 PM)
HAHAHHAHA
I MAKE FOR YOU
use old water bottle
the 1.5 ones should be heavy enough
then i paint them
:D

Enough says: (9:42:32 PM)
good, then you can vary the weight
just empty the water
and add water when youre feeling strong
closing the space in my heart says: (9:42:46 PM)
you go weigh first

Enough says: (9:42:51 PM)
-.-

closing the space in my heart says: (9:42:54 PM)
thanks ah you tell me everything now

Enough says: (9:42:56 PM)
im KIDDING
Enough says: (9:42:57 PM)
IDIOT
Enough says: (9:42:58 PM)
OMG
closing the space in my heart says: (9:43:06 PM)
ARGH

hahah DAMN CARTOON YOU
hahah eeediot when am i meeting you why don't you miss me :( quick, ask me out!

we too, can be saved

fuck this, just bedrest and the end will come sooner once these dry, heavy lids open to morning light tomorrow

it has been a weary, weary day

today i did some reflecting and i realise i'm tired of being the one in our dynamics. the one who bothers. and no i'm no martyr but i'm better than.. well, i don't really know anymore

ffff, give me a reason before i lose all reason

wonderbread

no telling what tomorrow holds
no telling what voice takes control
who let, who let this feeling die

i can't find a word which can succintly capture everything i'm feeling right now. it's a little bit of anger, frustration, helplessness and sadness all thrown together. and the best part is it's f-snowballing and looking to only get worse. and well swearing doesn't help get you out of a f-muckhole either so it's no f-good swearing anyway.

f- it.

thanks, you're the f- best.

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF.

F, coincidentally, spells Friend. just so you know

and on a completely unrelated note, i'm starting to wonder what kind of relationship we have and i'm wondering why i bother sometimes (and if you think this is about you, well, think harder)

rak

i want to go to the land of rak. i want my fisherman's pants. i want to go where i can breathe the fresh morning air and buy coconuts for 10 baht.

can't wait for the As to be over! come on come on

maooo

sekret

(http://community.livejournal.com/sgsecrets)

Loveless wrists

this is a public apology
to you: (you know who you are and i sure hope as hell you're reading this)

i'm really sorry if i've caused you to be upset (if i may be so bold as to assume i'm of that much importance). i know this marks me as a terrible terrible friend but well, the deed's been done (or rather, not done) and there's really nothing i can do but offer my regrets (profusely at that).

in your time, okay

:(

Aim for me

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next
button to get your answer.
3. You must write that title of that
song down no matter how silly it
sounds!

If someone says ''is this okay?'' you
say?
no one really wins

What would best describe your
personality?
error operator (??)

What do you like in a guy/girl?
only time will tell (how deep)

How do you feel today?
still haven't found what i'm looking for

What is your life's purpose?
speed of sound (uhhh)

What is your motto?
Fun fun fun (allllriiiiight!)

What do your friends think of you?
sick in her skin (do you really?)

What do you think of your parents?
kill (HAHHAHAHAHA)

What do you think about very often?
bite to break skin (i'm really not like that)

What do you think of your besties?
beautiful stalker

What do you think of the person you
like/love?
pretty waste (HM)

What do you want to be when you grow
up?
Jimmy Neutron (theme song) (he has awful hair)

What do you think when you see the
person you like/love?
pressure (spot on!)

What do your parents think of you?
wouldn't believe it (i'd like to think they have more faith in me hrm)

What will you dance to at your
wedding?
the no seatbelt song (not very danceable but okay)

What will they play at your funeral?
your own disaster (OH DEAR.)

What is your hobby/interest?
i fought the law (oh plzzzzz)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
september (yeah prelims hm hm hm)

What do you think of your friends?
fool (hahha you're not going to be pleased when you read this are you)

What song will be the subject when you
repost?
aim for me

riiiight that was mindless. thanks dubnee, i did this while you were studying stablised protein structures

more than what i know how to say

i'm not a fan of run of the mill cliches, but sometimes they just say what you want to so well. but well, they're too obvious sometimes- and in this case, i don't want to be like that. subtlety is key, cue smirk

i know i'm about as subtle as a brick in your back, but whatever

i can't wait for the days to pass more quickly, they have been quite crawlish of late :(




You're the echoes of my everything,
You're the emptiness the whole world sings at night.
You're the laziness of afternoon,
You're the reason why I burst and why I bloom.
You're the metaphors I can't create to comprehend this curse
How will I break the news to you

i hope you're not talking about me

there are many ways by which you'll know your day's off to a good start- and a headache carried forward just isn't one of them

your eyes they always sparkle me

today was a waste of time. i should have spent the day out of the house by my lonesome, it'd have been much much much more productive. ANYTHING would've been more productive then waking up at Ten, having lunch +yogurt + a gazillion other yummy things that you can put in your mouth + a 4 hour nap + attempts to watch grey's + lots of tv + a few biology chapters skimmed through

and if you got through that, congratulations! you are indeed worthy of being a Special Friend (of which leanne thinks i have many to speak of). well my favourite convo to have right before going to bed would be a detailed facial analysis (apparently it tells you many many things (most of which i cannot mention here), according to said Special Friend with Special Abilities)

ai ya, i miss you la okay you pantat stop throwing huffy fits love love

Roadkill

today during the evening run i saw something lying in the middle of the road. as i approached the beige inanimate thing, i realised that it was in fact a dead cat (with bloody head and all). the horror. and to top it off, there was a grey buddy cat just standing next to said dead cat and looking mournful. it was quite distressing, ergh, not at all the peaceful, relaxing run i was looking forward to. poor, poor cat. and poor cat's friend.

these are one of those hallmark-esque inspirational times when you realise that one day we're all going to end up like that- dead- albeit hopefully in a more.. distinguished fashion. i wouldn't want to go out with my head smashed like that. poor, poor kitty.

(almost) makes you want to spend your time alive more meaningfully hm hm

mrrowwr, amen to you

for what it's worth

fighting is exhausting

and i dont know why but there is, apparently, a masochist in me who seemingly enjoys reading and reading just to make sure the eyes didn't play tricks. it just hits me harder every single fucking time

my itunes has the uncanny ability to throw up songs that are just too appropriate

yeah you hit me really hard
you hit me right in the heart

but I never quite knew how it feels

i wish i could say

i've got my best shoes on,
ready to go

@#^(^%#$

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHGHGHGHGH

enlightened

Friendster Horoscope for June 7
Sagittarius (Nov 22 - Dec 21)

The Bottom Line
Push all activities into the afternoon if you can -- it will take a while to rev up.

In Detail
Whatever endurance-oriented activities you have scheduled early in the day should be pushed into the afternoon if you can -- your energy won't be as strong as you would like it to be in the morning. It is going to take a few hours for you to get revved up and start your day properly. Once you do, you will be hard to stop -- a force to be reckoned with! This strong energy will carry you into the evening and will start to wane just as you're ready to go to bed. You'll enjoy a sound sleep.

considering i got to school at eight, tried to read stuff but just didn't have the mojo, left before eleven, slept til 2, had lunch, bummed around watching videos, and am reading my horoscope now which tells me that basically today's gonna be useless (it's 5 already and i'm no juggernaut that's for sure). ultimately it's nailed it, save for the part where the day's supposed to pick up. i'm still waiting

maybe i should just go for a run and go to bed. fuck school

10 things i..

(i) List 10 things you want to say to people but know you never will
(ii) Don’t say who they are

stolen from roq
(i think i've done this meme before but, whatever. i'm going to cheat; a few points may refer to the same person ;) it's quite fun riiiight haha try guessing if you're on it looloolooo not telling you)

1. i become afraid when i think about the day when realisation sets in, (and i hope it never does, sometimes) because i'm terrified of losing the unconditional love i've known since forever. will you still?

2. i'm beginning to think you're asexual (to my dismay and horror)

3. you're really, really small
***(and no, it's not what you're thinking)***

4. i wish you'd trust me and open up. tell me things, as i've done with you. you don't know how betrayed i felt when you parried, dodged and ignored the questions i asked (i don't even think it was about probing). aren't we past that? sure, pretend all you want, you can't stop me from inferring and knowing

5. i think i could love you

6. i really love you and all but sometimes you're such a pain in the a**

7. i hate it when you say you "haven't studied"

finito, seven's my magic number

maybe

you're gonna be the one that saves me
and afer all you're my wonderwall