we bet the willing

you know how it is, when you lose things and you feel this unexplicable hollow in your heart

to think that you once had something, and to look at it now and wonder- why, and where did it all go

to look upon that face you thought you once knew so well, the very image seared into your brain- why, and how did it disappear

to see the smiles that don't extend to the eyes, to watch halfhearted waves, to feel sickness extending to your toes and much more

to listen to awkward conversations that don't say much- how they say nothing and yet everything; everything about what you've become and what went wrong

knowing that awkward starts and stops are probably all that will constitute your next conversation just sends the message home, doesn't it. after all's been said and done, maybe it's time to stop trying so hard.

i just guess i'm lucky i'm not reminded of this on a daily basis anymore

priceless

your embrace was my air
how i needed you there
FINALLY caught up with favourite friends today :]




today was good fun, let's do this more often shall we?

<333

our best friends

now that I'm grown I've seen friendships fall to pieces
weekend warriors, and our best friends
the writers weren't kidding about how all good things must end
then again some things, then again some things are far too good
some things are far too good to go ahead and let go

it's strange how much comfort you can draw from just being in a familiar environment, from returning to a place where you used to know, and still know like the back of your hand. at the risk of sounding overly dramatic, it actually gives me strength to carry on and brave the many tomorrows that are hurtling towards us

hello friend, if you're reading this you know i'm missing you

lea mel daph dee chi charlotte tammy maoooo g , <333 i hope you're all doing well

symphony of blase

have you ever felt the cold quiet fury in you radiate?

i'm so upset i can't even think straight. balls

anyway today be damned, so there.