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memento mori

these days have been boring, and hours have been alternating between school sleep school work sleep work sleep school sleep zzz the cycle never seems to end. it's only been seven weeks and already i feel so out of whack, so sian. i have absolutely no motivation whatsoever to study, unlike my studious classmates/schoolmates who flood the library. i try, but the library just lulls me to sleep. lovely airconditioning.

must be the school blues or something. i don't know, are you feeling it?

everyone around me is working so hard and i'm so unaccustomed to being anything but lazy. i don't want to work but everyone's working their butts off. agh. *continues with 30 seconds worth of whining

can't wait for the holidays when i'll be free to ride/skate with mao, shop with cai and etcetcetc with lea/mel/gang

all the tutorials are swarming me and work is piling up. i'm going to drown soon and then you'll never know i even existed. damn schoolwork.

dinner was supposed to be on the cards, i hope all works out in the end

so sick so sick of being tired, and oh so tired of being sick

home is where this heart lies

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Originally uploaded by adaaa.

yes, welcome home.. for just about the last official time.

today was spent largely in tears, of anxiety, fear and then some (joy)

kudos to mrs evelyn tan (whom we all sorely miss), mrs chris tan, mrs tan siew kim, dearest wubao, all the other teachers (like ctc) who've been there for us. and mrs goh of course, for her never faltering enthusiasm and belief in us.

we proved you right, and damn does it feel good.

remember to breathe

dear 07S03J,

i don't know if all of you will read this, but there's some stuff that needs to be said.

(time for confession, hahah)
*takes a deep breath*

honestly, i didn't like our class very much. maybe it was just me, but anyway it all felt very alien and cold (yah far cry from og hahah). but you know, it's been 6 weeks in raffles and 5 weeks with you all. things have really skyrocketed and you know, i love you all so much now. i don't want to have to leave!

eepig and our lame, cheesy jokes and gossip; denise and nan's kisses; sin yee's motherly-ness; vaness' smirks and zao sia voice; shin bin's intelligence and mahjong cards; poking hanis and tapping mus, shiwei, jiahui, azleen, mufeedha, mazlina and other unsuspecting victims; chu wen's height; kang rui, yi fan and liting my family; garry snail; linus lame lausy laughlaughlaugh; kwuan boon the tissuer; oh for pete's sake my body is so good peter; shawn's small adam's apple (hahahah JOKING HAHA); qin di mr confidence; xuanhong and mervin for.. i've yet to discover what hahah I HOPE I WILL GET TO PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE--- I WILL MISS ALL THESE SO (quote unquote our beloved ct) DAMN FRICKIN' MUCH YAH

dinner tonight was good fun, i love 3j! <3333333333

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things are really looking up now. the class and cca are good fun. new friends have been made, like susie and puma and classmates and z'things. classmates are bridge obsessed hahaha we whip out cards whenever and wherever possible

and now i really don't want to have to leave. i want badly want to stay and i'm really afraid things will take a turn for the worse. it's possible, you know, everything is. we'll see on friday, and meanwhile this is haunting every waking moment of my day

went back to st nicks again today, sitting around talking and enjoying the breeze and sunshine with tam and charlotte was good. i miss everyone, can't wait for friday, even if it means we'll be gathering for the wrong reason

til friday, missing all of you plenty

and you,
are you still willing to be everything you promised you would be