divine secrets

the sunset's more beautiful with you around too

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red koala, i am

you think?

and only betty knows

the week's barely started and it's already such a drag, what with the best friend being in melbourne for a week and long days in school to dread. i never thought i'd need you so much. must be them hormones

you think you know me, but you don't; so don't you try and judge me. you made me so angry i wanted to throttle you; but oh, there we go again. one day, maybe. for now, i'm just being myself, you think?

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so much for apologies
so much for promises
you never intended to keep
how does it all add up, how does the story end

the quiet things that no one ever knows

i feel disappointed, in you, but more so in myself. and that's saying something

i'm worried about so many things and when it becomes too much to handle, i realise that they are in fact, trivial, really. we must learn how to take a step back, and a much needed breather sometimes. i'm so tired of everything, screw you all

so sick so sick of being tired

you said you knew

being forced into decisions that might upset other people stinks.

but you know, when you're going to be upset no matter what, that's even stinkier

poo poo, what a lovely conclusion to tuesday. my crystal ball tells me i'm going to have a lovely week ahead

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thanks for making me feel even worse after i tried talking to you. you make it sound like i don't even (want to) try

the birthday song

today the stars are bright. they shine for the birthday girl

three years and counting, thanks for the memories. i won't ever forget laughing with and at you, especially about your horrible.. erm, preferences. here's to more chocolate, more chunky monkey, more rum and more fat! every year you grow fatter, don't you forget!

i need more of you, and less of me (i need to shed kilos now now now)

i love you g, happy 17th

10 things i

.. would say to people as of now. in no order of merit whatsoever, hahah


1) thank you to you, you and you for making dreary school bearable, for injecting much laughter and joy. for caring and for asking, for waiting and for listening.. for just being there. even though you steal my food, my cheng tng and my red haribos

2) i miss you and it was good seeing you monday, even though our plans didn't work in the end. dolphin juice soon, and skates too

3) lately you've made me lose faith, both in you and in others. i don't know what to think and honestly, i really am too tired to bother

4) i'm just really glad you're here with me, even though sometimes you're so caught up with school that you're too busy to talk. i'm glad we are a'okay now, and i love how you make me feel important and wanted. you'll always be my best

5) more study dates, more tau hway, more sausage mcmuffins and more pool. i miss you, more than you think, and i hope you're doing fine. stop fainting hahhah

6) i was on the bus the other day and i peered out of the window as it passed by your place, to no avail. bus ride coincidences no more, i guess. we aren't always lucky, but we can arrange to meet. for prata.. and for some lovin'

7) i'm glad you're not mad at me for failing, for not getting mad even though i have such a nonchalent attitude towards work, for trusting me to do what's best and to do what i think is right. for having the faith and believing i'll do the right thing when the time comes along. for accepting and loving me and giving me everything i could ask for

8) so you're going off in a few days time and not coming back til months later. i'm happy we spent half a day together, pigging out and laughing and taking a million photos. i couldn't ask for more from someone i hardly see anymore. come back soon for crepe and toys'r'us, with more starbursts for your fat friend.. me love you long time

9) we haven't been spending much time together and i miss you. i miss all the photos we used to take. it feels horrible being sidelined and i hate that you have so many friends and so little time. you're spread so thin that we've hardly time together and even though circumstances dicatate that we should see each other every day, we don't. what happened to the promises you made?

10) i remember i'd steal glances at you when you weren't looking. i haven't spoken to you in a while, here's hoping you're well and i'm keeping my fingers crossed, waiting, still and always. you had me from hello